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I think my next chapter is going to be the last.  I've got a rough draft that I am working on.  I keep doing other things to avoid writing it.  I'm stuck.  I have the scene in my head it's just hard to translate that into words.  I'm going to keep working.  Anyone want to help???


2020 I'm sure will go down as the most odd sort of year in history.  I'm sure nobody envisioned the corona virus and how vastly our society has changed.  I know I sure didn't, the year started out like it normally did.  We had been planning to attend a wedding in Florida and doing some sightseeing.  Now fast forward to August and we are facing not one but two hurricanes.  It's crazy.
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Way back in 2004 early 2005 I read this book called Tired of Being Tired.  This book changed my whole outlook on the things that I put into my body.  I was determined to eat healthy.  There were two ingredients that I needed to stay away from.  One was high fructose corn syrup and the other was partially hydrogenated oils.  So when I was setting up my lj account highfructose_cs was the first thing that popped into my head.  LOL

Fic: Remember Susan/Talia Part 22

Title: Remember (Part 22/?)
Fandom & Pairing Babylon 5 Susan/Talia
Disclaimer: I own nothing.

Talia persuaded Susan to take a shower and change while she made her some tea. She could hear Susan moving around in the bathroom. A smile broke out on the telepath's face. For a brief moment Talia pretended the last ten years never happened. This was just another typical night spent with her lover.

Susan was staring at herself in the mirror. Her eyes were swollen and red from all the crying she had been doing. Susan picked up the brush and ran it through her wet hair. She sighed feeling so lost and alone. Granted Talia was in the next room but that did little to ease the ache she felt inside. She turned off the light and headed out into the living room.

Susan emerging from the bathroom brought Talia back from her day dream. She finished pouring the tea into mugs and joined Susan on the couch.

"Do you feel better?", she handed her a mug. Susan accepted the drink. She tired to smile but it just didn't reach her eyes. "A little." She barely got it out, her throat was dry and scratchy from all the crying.
Talia placed her hand on Susan's shoulder and gave it a gentle squeeze. "I'm sure once you get some rest you'll start to feel better. She took a sip of her tea enjoying the hot liquid sliding down her throat.
Susan scooted closer to Talia and rested her head on her shoulder. She felt safe whenever she was with the telepath. Talia automatically wrapped her arm around Susan's shoulder and held her close. Susan relaxed into the embrace. Just being in this woman's presence calmed her. She buried her nose in the telepath's warm neck. She started to place small kisses along her neck.
Talia was enjoying the closeness of Susan. She thought she would never feel Susan in her arms again. The last ten years had been so lonely without her love. She was momentarily startled by the soft kisses on her neck but her body responded automatically as it always did. She pressed closer to Susan, a small moan escaping her lips. "Oh Susan," she purred in her deep alto voice.

Hearing the telepath moan seemed to encourage Susan. She kissed her way to the telepath's lips. Before Talia had a chance to say anything she felt Susan's lips on hers. The touch was electric. She never thought she would feel those lips kissing her again. All rational thought had left her brain replaced with intense desire for the woman next to her. Talia deepened the kiss, slipping her tongue into Susan's mouth. She ran her hands up and down Susan's back. She could feel Susan's hands doing some exploring of their own. When she felt one of her hands sneak underneath her sweater she tried to pull back.
"Susan, wait," she panted against her neck, pulling out of her embrace. Susan whimpered at the loss of contact. Her face was flushed and her eyes were dark with desire. She tried reaching for Talia again but was stopped.

"Susan, sweetie you need to slow down. I don't want you to do something you'll regret later." It was tearing Talia apart inside, she wanted nothing more than to make love with Susan. But she had to think about Susan instead of herself. She knew she was feeling so vulnerable and didn't want to take advantage of that. She had to stop herself before she reached the point where she couldn't.
Susan raised her eyes to meet the telepath's. She was trying so hard not to cry but she was feeling so empty. "Talia please", she grabbed her hands and help them up to her lips. She placed kisses on her knuckles. "I want to feel something besides the emptiness, make me feel Talia, please." She was begging but she didn't care.

The desperation pouring from her voice tugged at Talia's heart. She loved Susan more than anybody or anything. She couldn't refuse such a heartfelt plea. Talia moved back into her embrace bringing her lips crashing against Susan's.

Fic: Remember Susan/Talia Part 21

Title: Remember (Part 21/?)
Fandom & Pairing Babylon 5 Susan/Talia
Disclaimer: I own nothing.

Dr. Stephen Franklin sat at his desk surrounded by numerous test results. He flipped between several reports, checking and double checking the results. He began to shake his head in disbelief. "This can't be right," he muttered to himself. He spent the last two hours administering every test known to man. He was searching for any clue that would lead him to understand what was done to Susan. Stephen decided he wanted to talk with Michael before he broke the news to Susan. He activated his link, "Franklin to Garabaldi. He waited patiently for Michael to answer his page.

Michael was a bit surprised that the doc was contacting him through the link. He was only a few feet away in the main area of Medlab. Perhaps Stephen thought he left. While Susan was here in Medlab he wasn't going anywhere. Michael activated his link, "Is there a problem Doc?"
"No, could you come into my office for a minute." Michael glanced over at Talia and shrugged his shoulders. "I'm on my way."
Michael stuck his head into the doctor's office. "Why didn't you just come out and get me?" He took the seat opposite Stephen's desk and sat down.
Stephen sighed "I know there would be a lot of questions and I don't have any answers. I ran every test imaginable and came up with nothing."
Michael's brows raised in disbelief. "You found nothing. What was done to Susan had to leave a signature behind."
"I"m sorry Michael I triple checked these results and got the same outcome each time." He threw the useless results on his desk.
"From what Susan told me the procedure was very experimental."
"If I were able to talk with the doctor who performed the procedure that would help a great deal. Stephen started to feel hopeful.

Michael began shaking his head. "That's not possible he died a few years ago and all his research went with him."
Stephen sighed, "I'm not going to give up. It might take a little longer than I expected but I will fix this. Now I just have to break the news to Susan."

Michael stood to leave the office. "If you'd rather I tell her......
Stephen shook his head. "Thanks Michael but I would rather tell her myself. I want her to know that I'm not giving up and will do everything in my power to help her.

Susan felt broken. Dr. Franklin just left the exam room after giving her the news. He vowed to continue working until her memory was restored. She didn't feel comforted by that at all. Susan wrapped her arms around herself in a hug. Part of her wished she never came to Babylon 5 and discovered the truth.

Memories of her life on Proxmia began filtering through her mind. A small smile formed on her face as she recalled fond memories. It might not have been her life but it was a good one. She had been happy surrounded by friends and family. She slowly made her way to the viewport and looked out into space. She didn't want to think about anything else tonight. She gathered up her things and left the exam room.

Entering the med lab she spotted Michael and Talia waiting for her. She smiled when the telepath noticed her.
Talia got up from her chair and met Susan halfway. She placed a hand on her cheek. "Are you ok?" Michael stood beside the two women offering his support as well.
Susan leaned into the comforting touch and sighed. "Can we just leave here? I'm so tired. I don't want to think anymore." She rested her head against Talia's shoulder.
"Sure whatever you want." She placed an arm around her shoulders and hugged her close. "How about I take you back to your quarters and you can get some rest?

Susan lifted her head looking straight into the telepath's eyes. "Will you stay with me, I don't want to be alone?"
Talia wanted to tell Susan that she would do anything she asked of her. She wanted to tell her how much she loved her and missed her all these years. But she knew that would be too much for her to take on right now in her fragile condition. She didn't remember the love they shared but Talia would remember for the both of them.
"Susan I told you earlier that I was going to be here for you no matter what. So yes of course I will stay with you." She smiled at her and placed a kiss on her forehead.

Fic: Remember Susan/Talia Part 20

Title: Remember (Part 20/?)
Fandom & Pairing Babylon 5 Susan/Talia
Disclaimer: I own nothing.
A/N Sorry about the delay. I've so busy with real life these past few weeks. All my social commitments are done and now I have time to focus on the story. I would like to thank all the readers who have stuck with me.

Michael couldn't take the desperation he heard in his friend's voice. He wrapped his arms around his friend and held her close. He pulled back to look into her blood shot eyes. "I think a good place to start is with Doc Franklin. He can run a complete checkup on you."
Susan's eyes went wide with fear at the mention of a doctor, she tried to wriggle out of Michael's embrace.

"Whoa calm down. There's nothing to be afraid of Stephen is a friend and wouldn't do anything to harm you." He led Susan over to the sofa in his office. Why don't you sit here and try to calm down. I need to make a quick call before we head down to medlab." He noticed a vacant enter Susan's eyes as she complied with his request. He slowly made his way to the console and placed a call to Talia.
Within a few seconds Talia's head appeared on his screen.

"Michael did you find Susan?"
"Well hello to you too, he couldn't help but chuckle at Talia's straightforwardness.
"Well did you Michael?" She was getting frustrated that Michael wouldn't just tell her. She had been so worried about her since she left the restaurant.
"Yes, she's here with me now."
Talia visibly relaxed at the news.
"I'm going to head down to Medlab and wanted you to meet us there. I think she could use another friendly face."

Michael made his way back to Susan. He found her just staring at the wall with tears streaming down her face. He gently laid his hand on her shoulder.
"Susan are you ready?"
She jumped at the unexpected contact. She had been so deep in thought she didn't notice Michael come back into the room.
"I'm sorry I startled you. Are you ready to go?"
Susan just nodded her head and got up to follow the security chief.

Talia left her quarters and quickly made her way to the Medlab. She couldn't wait to see Susan again. She was overjoyed to find out that Irinia was in fact her beloved Susan. She didn't have time to time to relish in that revelation Susan had bolted from the restaurant. All she wanted to do was hold her and never let her go. Talia paced back and forth in front of the Medlab doors.
Susan entered Medlab closely followed by Michael. Talia felt her before she saw her.

She stopped her pacing and headed towards the new arrivals. At her first glimpse of Susan she felt joy. It was quickly overshadowed by worry. Susan looked so lost and broken. Her heart ached for Susan's pain.
"Susan", Talia softly called to her. Susan turned when she heard her name. It was still odd to her to be called anything but Irinia. Thinking of her former life brought tears to her eyes. She blinked them back and tried to focus on who was calling her. She was surprised to see it was Talia. She raised her hand and waved.

Talia wasted no time and quickly found herself at Susan's side. She wrapped her arms around the fragile woman and hugged her close. She felt Susan cling to her and return the embrace. Talia whispered soothing words of comfort into Susan's ear, hoping to calm the woman. She felt her relax in her arms.

Dr. Stephen Franklin emerged from his office. He had been briefed by Michael about the situation. He slowly approached the two women.

"Susan I'm Dr. Franklin, I'm not sure you remember me but I'm your friend and I want to help you anyway that I can."
Susan looked at the doctor. He claimed to be her friend but her trust in doctors these days was nonexistent. She looked at Talia for some reassurance. "Will you go with me?" It was spoken so low Talia almost missed it.
Talia placed her hand on her cheek and she leaned into the touch. "Of course I will come with you. I will be here with you every step of the way." Both women followed the doctor to an exam room.